Almost 10 days have passed… and she still is my first thought in the morning and my last one at night. I don’t seem to be able to accept the fact that she isn’t there any more, and that she isn’t coming back.
I look out of the window and see her running to the horses (of course stopping some 4 meters before them, because they are bigger and she was afraid of them) or barking at a strange sound outside.
When I see rainclouds coming toghether I think of getting her inside so that she doesn’t get wet…
She is so present in our lives with all her small dear character flaws!
I feel like a traitor when I think of getting another dog to lift the spirits of my other dear doggie, who is now alone and prawls Hori’s special places…
I wish I could say something to ease your pain. But there are no such words.
If you do choose to get another dog. It won’t be a replacement, as there’s no way to replace Hori. There is plenty of room in your heart for Horacia and for a new puppy dog. And it just might make you smile again.
I think of you and Hori often. Your photography, the stills and the videos, is so lovely and really makes me feel as if I’m there in the moment. I really love the one from your “Long day” post, but they are all so gorgeous.
I know what you mean, to some extent, about feeling like a traitor when thinking of getting another pup. I still have three pups, so I’m not in the position of having to consider another for a companion for one. That said, I watch vidoes online of Saint Bernard puppies now and it makes me happy. Somehow thinking of the cycle of life on the front end is comforting, and who doesn’t get a mood lift when they see puppies? It’s a bit of a guilty pleasure, but I also know that I do it because I see little hints of my big girl there and that helps me cope with losing her.
I don’t try to change the sad moments, though. I need to go through those emotions and cry freely when the mood strikes. We all move at our own pace and in our own way, so honor your heart and peace will follow.
Hugs,
Mel
I wish I could send you some comforting words, but I am sure it is not getting any easier, for you Cecelia or you, Mel. I remember, although I try not to remember too much, how hard it was when I lost my last beloved Pup, even though he was quite elderly. And so few people understand.
I do love that portrait of Hori and Castano in front of the horses on the ranch. Beautiful, each of them and all of them together.
Susan & Tazzie