One year… so long, so short

My dearest Hori,

so much has happened since you left us, and still, we feel your empty space every day.
The good news is that we now are able to laugh remembering your odd ways and crazy doings. Somehow you are always present, even though others can´t see you. Kind of like with “Calvin & Hobbes” your “spirit” (the little stuffed dog you loved so well) comes to life when nobody is looking.

Even though I could not understand it last year, the miscarriage I had shortly before your diagnosis somehow fit in with the events that followed… Your parting woud have shadowed the whole pregnancy.

I am now pregnant again and expecting your human baby brother in about 6 weeks. My tears of joy mingle with tears of regret because he will never know you. Your sister Julia, now 2 years and 2 months old still remembers you and even plays with her new doggie under the tree where we buried you and tells me she goes and plays with you. It really is endearing.

You will always be like my firstborn and everything we lived through together will remain with me forever.

We love you dear pup… and hope you are having fun up there.

Keep in touch,

Cecilia

Author: horacia

Hi, I\'m a 5 year old great dane, very ladylike and now thanks to you all a tripawd rather than euthanised. The bone cancer diagnosis (8/8/09) was shocking and indeed we had to get a second opinion to get to the alternative of amputation (12/8/09). Again thank you!nI was born and bred in Germany and now live in Argentina, so sorry if my English isn\'t very good.nI hope to share and get lots of information and experiences here in Tripawds.com

5 thoughts on “One year… so long, so short”

  1. It’s hard to believe a year has passed. Thanks for checking in and congratulations on the pending new baby. Best wishes!

  2. Dear Cecelia,
    First of all, what makes your blog special is that you are a talented writer. I see that clearly. Second, you are willing to share your pain. I’m sitting here at the Albina Press in Portland with tears streaming down my face. I NEVER used to cry in public, but man, in the past month since Indi has been diagnosed with cancer and had her leg amputated I’ve gotten really good at it!
    I work with pregnant women in crisis and my heart goes out to you for both the loss of your pregnancy last year, and the loss of your first born (I call Indi my first born, too. No human kids yet, though).
    I’m still in the super positive phase. Indi’s cancer is undetectable and she is recovering well. Still, I can’t help but wonder how much time we have together. And the reality of one day losing her before I’m ready has hit home.
    Your new puppy is adorable, as is your toddler. And a baby on the way! Your life is full of new beginnings. Lucky lady. Even though you miss Horacia. Lots of love, Raina, Indi’s mom.

  3. Hori, Cecilia

    We remember you well. Hori was part of Tazzie’s special cohort, always will be. (Maybe they weren’t the most blessed cohort in terms of longevity but they definitely made up for it in quality! ):

    Thanks for sharing your news of Hori’s newly arriving baby brother!

  4. Dear Hori and Cecilia,

    Horacia, you already know what a wise little girl Julia is. We still remember the wonderful pictures of you and she–such a tiny girl and such a biiiig, beautiful, gentle girldog. Julia will never forget you and neither shall we.

    Cecilia–all the best to you and the new life you are bringing into the world. Be sure to introduce him to the wonderful world of tripawds as soon as he is old enough to pay attention!

    xoxoxox,
    Codie Rae and the Oaktown Pack

  5. Hori, we just can’t believe it’s been a whole year, because we think of you all the time and hold you up to other new Tripawds as a shining example of a beautiful, Big Dawg Tripawd. Your time on earth was far too short but your memory lives on here forever.

    Cecilia, congratulations on your new baby, what a beautiful gift! May he know the Love of Dog just as you do, and grow up around lots of fur, wags and licks!

    Hugs coming your way….

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